job search is hard and stressful

Hi everyone.

Yes. I have finally completed my bachelors and I have ended my official education.

Say no to:

-LECTURES

-TESTS

- EXAMS!!

However, in all the joy of not having to sit 2 hours for a paper, there is this cold brutal truth of job search and entering the adult world.

Where parents stop giving pocket money or allowances, the financial burden kicks in.

- RESPONSIBILITIES

-PHONE BILLS

-STUDENT LOANS

-DAILY EXPENSES

I have completed my education and I am 2 weeks into unemployment with ZERO income. So basically, I am living off my savings right now. Every bus ride, every train ride, every MEAL costs money and hurts my heart a little as I do not have income.

Luckily for me, my parents were understanding. They still gave me some allowance during this time while I search for a full time job. I love my parents and thank them for understanding my situation.

I don't know if it is my upbringing or is it just the stress that i put onto my self. These two weeks was torturous. With nothing to look forward to daily, I wake up at 11am ( yes, 11am), have some brunch, go watch a few episodes of Kdrama, apply some jobs online if I am feeling stressed about unemployment, chat with my other unemployed friends have dinner, watch more shows, practice calligraphy, watch more shows and finally sleep at 2 am. 

One thing I don't understand is why blogger.com doesn't help me make my "I"s and the first alphabet of each sentence capital letter. KIDDING.

What I do not understand is WHY IS JOB SEARCH SO HARD AND SO STRESSFUL. WHY DOES IT TAKE SO LONG TO FIND A FULL TIME JOB.

Well, I understand that employers need time to do other stuff other than looking at resumes, but I really did not expect such a painful wait. Also, I feel that Singapore's education system do not train us well enough for the workforce. Well, at least for the education I received. Like I didn't know what to expect for job search, I did not know that interviews will be such a painful thing.

I have been to a few interviews before my graduation. 3 to be exact. But obviously none of them got back to me with a job offer hence the post :S. There was ONE interview that was traumatizing where the hiring manager drilled my full education process and drilled me for each and every one of my education choice and internship choice and drilled me on WHY I WANT THE JOB.

I understand where they are coming from. But from my stand, I just want a job to pay the bills and I am alright with the job scope and hence my application. I wasn't expecting a fancy thing, I just want a simple life.

That interview was TAUNTING. I swear that I was traumatized by it and I didn't apply any other jobs for 2 weeks as I was too scared and traumatized by the earlier interview. I wasn't mentally prepared to face another interview soon.

Now, after I have officially completed my studies, I am really bored of unemployment life. I want to look forward to something daily. I want a job. I want to have some meaning in life, something to wake up to.

sometimes i wish i didnt graduate and be an adult yet. 

inspired by

I have this recent obsession with EXO, a korean boy band, as mentioned in my previous post and I just want to share this quote that I got that is truely amazing so I can remember it instead of it being lost in my tweet history.

Anyways, you can follow me on twitter @questionmarkyee ! but I tweet mainly regarding kpop and rage tweets when I need to complain. my blog, i guess is more for reflection and more mature stuff. well, thats what I aim to be anyways.


.
.
anyways, here's the quote 

Don't make EXO the reason of your study failures. Make us your INSPIRATION, not your DESTRUCTION, because of your OBSESSION. - Kai, EXO

I dont know when did he say this. but i saw this on twitter previously during before my examinations and it motivated me to delete my twitter app on my phone and focus on my studies. haha! 

I guess I could say that it really made me more focus without my daily dose of EXO on my Tlist.


I hope that you can by inspired by this quote too and focus and achieve more! 

good luck!

what am i doing with my life?

Has it ever occur to you that you are a no lifer?

I am experiencing that right now. 

My friends has various post exam activities and me? 

Nothing. 

No plans at all. 

Well, I have plans to go overseas, but other than that, nothing. 

Have you ever compared yourself to various celebrities you see on the television, online, youtube etc and envied them?

Recently I have been hooked up to EXO, a korean boy band. 

Well, they are around the same age as me but yet they have achieved a million times more than me. 

It makes me envious and depressed. 

It is not that I am giving myself too much pressure, but the world is like that. 

I guess. 

How did everyone else achieve so much and i achieved so little? 

I have no life, I am stuck at home with no friends to go out with, stuck with this world of internet. 

~just a random and quick reflection. 

cheap thrills

hello~~~!!!

for the past few days, I've noticed a sudden jump in my blog views and I would like to say thank you to you, my fellow random readers.

Anyways, my final exam and last paper is in two days time and I will unofficially graduated in two days time!! hurray!! I really need this break!!.. :) I cant wait for it!

another update about my personal life other than the unofficial graduation is that i have decided to leave my choir soon. due to various reasons. firstly is because my parents are against the idea of my participation in choir since forever and their stand became stronger after i mentioned that my choir is going overseas and i want to go with them. next is because i do not find the same joy and passion in singing as compared to a couple of years back. (i love nail polish more haha!) and also, the commitments of being in the choir is increasing where i do not just go and sing for fun only, there is also the financial stress and vocal stress. as in i need to take up lessons vocally. such that being in the choir is, i would say STRESSFUL when my intention was to have fun, to have a life other than school or work. but its like another set of commitment like having double work, double school. like are you crazy?? i am a superwoman but i cant cope with so much work and stress!... ... 

so ya i have decided to quit. 
and just to digress, they should have a auto caps like the phones when we write online. because i dont press shift and caps my first letter of my sentence neither do i caps for the work i.! so you are reading my blog in all small letters. :) because i am lazy. :X


okay back to topic to why i am blogging. 

drum rolls pleaseeeeee.. ....






.

.

.





I HAVE FOUND A SITE THAT BRINGS CIATE TO SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!
feel so happy when i found the site because i fell in love with the beautiful beautiful ciate bottles when i saw it on youtube with their carviar tutorial. they look so delicate and beautiful seriously.. ... 

anyways i want to have at least 1 bottles of them in my collection and 2 bottles of deborah lippmann. i love love the colour Mermaid's Dream and Stairway to Heaven and the description of Stairway to Heaven is "iridescent icicle (glitter)" iridescent... ... the word reminds me of my aquaculture class. 


so anyways. i want them!! they are SOOO PRETTY!!!.. can anyone sponsor me??
because they are relatively pricey. :S as compared to OPI or china glaze sold here in singapore. :S.. i can buy 2-3 bottles of OPI for the price of one deborrah lippmann. :/

when i am richer i guess.. 


anyways, my mum's friend went to korea and bought three nail polishes for me. i will post them up in another post with swatches after my exams. and they are SUPER CHEAP! the normal nail polish is 1000won which is approximately S$1.20 i guess and the crackled nail polish is approximately S$5!! super cheap!! but i am not sure if their quality is comparable to OPI or china glaze.   



so yup that's it for today's post. :) continue to visit and i will try my very best to blog as often as possible!