job search is hard and stressful

Hi everyone.

Yes. I have finally completed my bachelors and I have ended my official education.

Say no to:

-LECTURES

-TESTS

- EXAMS!!

However, in all the joy of not having to sit 2 hours for a paper, there is this cold brutal truth of job search and entering the adult world.

Where parents stop giving pocket money or allowances, the financial burden kicks in.

- RESPONSIBILITIES

-PHONE BILLS

-STUDENT LOANS

-DAILY EXPENSES

I have completed my education and I am 2 weeks into unemployment with ZERO income. So basically, I am living off my savings right now. Every bus ride, every train ride, every MEAL costs money and hurts my heart a little as I do not have income.

Luckily for me, my parents were understanding. They still gave me some allowance during this time while I search for a full time job. I love my parents and thank them for understanding my situation.

I don't know if it is my upbringing or is it just the stress that i put onto my self. These two weeks was torturous. With nothing to look forward to daily, I wake up at 11am ( yes, 11am), have some brunch, go watch a few episodes of Kdrama, apply some jobs online if I am feeling stressed about unemployment, chat with my other unemployed friends have dinner, watch more shows, practice calligraphy, watch more shows and finally sleep at 2 am. 

One thing I don't understand is why blogger.com doesn't help me make my "I"s and the first alphabet of each sentence capital letter. KIDDING.

What I do not understand is WHY IS JOB SEARCH SO HARD AND SO STRESSFUL. WHY DOES IT TAKE SO LONG TO FIND A FULL TIME JOB.

Well, I understand that employers need time to do other stuff other than looking at resumes, but I really did not expect such a painful wait. Also, I feel that Singapore's education system do not train us well enough for the workforce. Well, at least for the education I received. Like I didn't know what to expect for job search, I did not know that interviews will be such a painful thing.

I have been to a few interviews before my graduation. 3 to be exact. But obviously none of them got back to me with a job offer hence the post :S. There was ONE interview that was traumatizing where the hiring manager drilled my full education process and drilled me for each and every one of my education choice and internship choice and drilled me on WHY I WANT THE JOB.

I understand where they are coming from. But from my stand, I just want a job to pay the bills and I am alright with the job scope and hence my application. I wasn't expecting a fancy thing, I just want a simple life.

That interview was TAUNTING. I swear that I was traumatized by it and I didn't apply any other jobs for 2 weeks as I was too scared and traumatized by the earlier interview. I wasn't mentally prepared to face another interview soon.

Now, after I have officially completed my studies, I am really bored of unemployment life. I want to look forward to something daily. I want a job. I want to have some meaning in life, something to wake up to.

sometimes i wish i didnt graduate and be an adult yet.