Monday, 2 January 2017

Lost, unsure, full of unsecurities.

Hi it's me.

As I recalled, the last time I posted was during my unemployment. Just a quick update on my life, I'm employed!

I am currently a full time employee in a MNC and working on the back end of clinical trials.
Work is fine, decent pay, good location (45 minutes from my house), decent career progression opportunities.
It isn't fantabulous neither is it a crap working environment, it's just fine.

So moving on from education, I've gotten myself a job which I see myself in for probably 3 years? With the intention of using the skills I've obtained n venture to greater grounds.

Currently I've been working for 3 full months, tomorrow is the start of the 4th month working at my current position and I'm still struggling to find a balance between work n life.

Especially life.

Currently I've nothing to look forward to after work, I exercise once a week with my best friend from my university times, and meet up with random friends once in a while. Other than that, I've no other plans.

No boyfriend. No classes. Nothing much.

I think I'm too used to looking forward to something after classes everyday and now I feel empty not having any commitments.

In addition, with the lack of a partner, I might be left on the shelf and may die alone without a partner. As with my social life right now, there is no opportunities to meet guys or hang out with new people.
And just before typing this post, I was actually googling "what to do when you are single af" this shows how screwed up I am with my life. T.T

Oh wells.

Just suddenly feeling very emotional that I am required to pen my feelings down.

Bye.

Thursday, 15 September 2016

Rants of a jobless fresh graduate

Hi there.

Here I am, still jobless. Doing This and That everyday. 
When I say this and that, I meant getting stressed with unemployment, scrolling social media and be jealous of my fellow peers that has a job, doing nothing and wasting my day, getting fat being a couch potato.

Yesterday, during my usual facebook scroll, I chanced upon two posts by The Straits Times singapore which explains my situation.

Nearly 3 in 4 Singapore employers have zero plans to hire more staff in Q4: Survey


With the local papers having news about the poor economy and that some companies have ZERO plans to hire. I am at a disadvantage. Being a fresh grad, with little industry experience I am at disadvantage as compared to those with work experience. In addition. finding my dream job was my dream during my paper qualification pursue. During the entire time as a student, all I was dreaming about was having a job, having money to buy what I want, doing something important at work and that studying hard was the first step to helping me achieve my goals. 

However, this dream is a dream. Reality is not as perfect as what I dreamt. I have been unemployed and this tiring search of the dream first job is not glamorous.  

On a daily basis, 
  • I wake up at 10am in hopes of HR to call me during the office hours. 
  • Submit my applications to multiple positions on a weekly basis on various job portals and emailing to various companies directly. 
  • Text my friends (who have 1 year contract jobs) on how stressed I am doing nothing and not working
  • Stressing myself for not working or not being able to find work while comparing myself to my peers or acquaintances comparing myself to their success.
  • Doing some random shit that has zero relevance to my future job which includes typing this blog post. 
Also on a social get together setting (eg family dinners, dinner with friends),
  • I get the taboo question of "do you have a job yet, when do you start work"
  • People asking if it is hard to find a job
  • People saying that they are afraid of their future after seeing me being unemployed for so long after graduation
  • Also, there are people that tell me to take my time to search, opportunities do not arrive after the first interview, first application, and that it is normal to go for multiple interviews before landing myself in a job. 
  • There are also people that tell me to take my time to search, as once I enter the work force, its my life and I would not have any other chances to rest like now, while I am young
Through meeting up with so many people, talking to so many people with different points of views and being unemployed for so long. I am a changed person. 
I am no longer the same person I was when I was a student. 
I am not longer the same person I was when I just finished my degree. 
I am no longer the same person I was when I was just a 1 week old fresh graduate. 

At the end of the day, I want to add that I am still on a hunt for a job, for employment but this hunt is making me a better person, stronger person. As the song lyrics say: What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

To those readers that are on the same page as me right now, or maybe in the future to anyone who reads this, press on. Finding a job is a process, it may or may not be easy but it will change you and help you rediscover yourself.

-end of rant, bye. I need to prepare for an interview that I have tomorrow. and if I am not wrong, its the 10th interview I have attended this year, 5th since graduation.- 

Tuesday, 13 September 2016

no title

Hi.

I am still unemployed, been to multiple interviews but have yet to receive offers.
I went for a family lunch over the weekend and I saw my mum texting my aunt not to ask me about jobs.

Wednesday, 7 September 2016

11 random things

Hi.

Just a random post
  1. people are shocked by my unemployment.
  2. people like me don't like to READ blog posts. (i prefer images like instagram)
  3. random grab bags sold are a waste of money (you dont know what you will get. so basically you are just throwing money to the seller to give whatever she wants) 
  4. i just spent 5 minutes digging my ears because it was suddenly so itchy.
  5. i picture myself being an OL (office lady)
  6. sometimes i don't feel like replying to certain people.
  7. with unemployment, i am getting back into calligraphy.
  8. i realised, to have a beautifully instagram-worthy calligraphy work requires a lot of behind-the-scenes doodles and trial-and-errors.
  9. my sitting posture is so bad recently that i get headaches
  10. i need to do a facial
  11. i did consider doing youtube or like to be an influencer on social media. but my photo editing skills sucks and i cant take nice pictures.

end.