Here I am, still jobless. Doing This and That everyday.
When I say this and that, I meant getting stressed with unemployment, scrolling social media and be jealous of my fellow peers that has a job, doing nothing and wasting my day, getting fat being a couch potato.
Yesterday, during my usual facebook scroll, I chanced upon two posts by The Straits Times singapore which explains my situation.
With the local papers having news about the poor economy and that some companies have ZERO plans to hire. I am at a disadvantage. Being a fresh grad, with little industry experience I am at disadvantage as compared to those with work experience. In addition. finding my dream job was my dream during my paper qualification pursue. During the entire time as a student, all I was dreaming about was having a job, having money to buy what I want, doing something important at work and that studying hard was the first step to helping me achieve my goals.
However, this dream is a dream. Reality is not as perfect as what I dreamt. I have been unemployed and this tiring search of the dream first job is not glamorous.
On a daily basis,
- I wake up at 10am in hopes of HR to call me during the office hours.
- Submit my applications to multiple positions on a weekly basis on various job portals and emailing to various companies directly.
- Text my friends (who have 1 year contract jobs) on how stressed I am doing nothing and not working
- Stressing myself for not working or not being able to find work while comparing myself to my peers or acquaintances comparing myself to their success.
- Doing some random shit that has zero relevance to my future job which includes typing this blog post.
Also on a social get together setting (eg family dinners, dinner with friends),
- I get the taboo question of "do you have a job yet, when do you start work"
- People asking if it is hard to find a job
- People saying that they are afraid of their future after seeing me being unemployed for so long after graduation
- Also, there are people that tell me to take my time to search, opportunities do not arrive after the first interview, first application, and that it is normal to go for multiple interviews before landing myself in a job.
- There are also people that tell me to take my time to search, as once I enter the work force, its my life and I would not have any other chances to rest like now, while I am young
Through meeting up with so many people, talking to so many people with different points of views and being unemployed for so long. I am a changed person.
I am no longer the same person I was when I was a student.
I am not longer the same person I was when I just finished my degree.
I am no longer the same person I was when I was just a 1 week old fresh graduate.
At the end of the day, I want to add that I am still on a hunt for a job, for employment but this hunt is making me a better person, stronger person. As the song lyrics say: What doesn't kill you makes you stronger
To those readers that are on the same page as me right now, or maybe in the future to anyone who reads this, press on. Finding a job is a process, it may or may not be easy but it will change you and help you rediscover yourself.
-end of rant, bye. I need to prepare for an interview that I have tomorrow. and if I am not wrong, its the 10th interview I have attended this year, 5th since graduation.-